I'm mazed

I am ashamed to say anything when I face my blog, which was updated 3 months ago. I'm thinking that if it was a real baby, it might grow up big enough during these 3 months.

Something big event really happend to me during these 3 months, and I really had some special feeling to express. However, I made my blog vacant again and again!

I always realize that life is facing many choices. But, it is really a hard time to make every choice, especially at such a crucial time during my life!

To tell you the truth, I'm beginning to doubt about my studing abroad, as well as my dream. I'm pigheaded. I always stick to something that has been recognized in my heaart. I used to be proud of my permanent dream. Comparing to those who just drift with the tide, I believe my goaled life is much more meaningful. However, such a faith is just being destroyed little by little. It's because of the truth of the life or just because of my laziness?

Is it a regular question to people at my age? Then, what will be the result? Obstinately stick to my way, bearing loneliness and misunderstanding? Or, return to an ordinary woman's life: being his wife, being his mother, being his grandmother...

Searay's back *&*

I’m so sorry to my “dream”! :-( I’ve let it slide for almost 4 months.

Busy! Busy! Busy! @!@

Since that “Tomorrow”, my life seemed to be full of study. Fortunately, it’s really interesting and I did learn quite a lot from these 3 months. Unfortunately, it seemed I was too devoted that I gave up all other entertainments of mine. Though I gained a lot from my study, I noticed I lost something important in my life. So I decided I won’t to put my whole heart on my study. It’s also important to write diary to memorize my every different feeling, to practise Gu Zheng to realize one of my dreams, to do some exercises to keep me healthy… Anyway, enjoy my life!

I have too much to say here, but it seems I couldn’t express all once time. And I found my written English degenerated too much without writing in blog. I need to work hard on my blog from now on!

I came back again! HaHa~~~~ Add some my “fruits” to memorize these 3 blank months. *)*

Tomorrow

Excited, nervous, afraid… it’s hard to describe my feeling now.

Tomorrow will be the first day of my new college. I have waited for it for three months. I choose this school by chance, but the program is what I’m really interested in. It should be lucky. However, I can’t help worrying about something.

I came to Vancouver for studying MBA program as well as beginning a new living abroad. It went favorably until I found this program was totally unsuitable for me. I determinedly dropped it though I lost around $7000 from this case. That because I’m the person who’s uncompromisingly sticking to her dream. Although it’ll be only a diploma degree, the new course is what I really want to learn. I never regret having this choice, and my parents support me as well.

But… I’m really worrying about that the course maybe not as good as my expectation; I’m afraid I would be the worst English-speaking student; I fear if it worth having a diploma degree instead of a master degree; I doubt if I will succeed in it… Many Chinese international students choose to study management or computer here for a better job in the future. I also wish an easy-gotten job in the future. But I can’t ignore the dream in my heart.

Realism or dream, which is more important to us? Which should be considered first in our true life?

Whistler Eventually!

I was looking forward to Whistler for a long time, and eventually I went to the top of Whistler on Jan 21st, 2006. It would be a rememberable day of my life!

I never saw such grand snow scenery before as I used to live in the south part of China. Before the bus arrived to the destination, I had already couldn’t help taking those beautiful snow pictures. I even couldn’t differentiate whether the snow or the cloud surrounding the top of the mountain.

Out of my expectation, it was not frozenly cold there. Maybe it was because of the crowded visitors :) I took a gondola with my other 7 friends. It was so excited that the small gondola was full of our happiness. And it was really astounding to look down to the mountain from a gondola. How fantastic! Look at those skiers, they were so cool that galloping from the high snow mountain. I wish I could be one of them so much@#@



The snow here was totally different from my imagination. It’s thick but dry. So don’t worry about not having boots. You can run freely in this snow world only with sports shoes. Watch! Snowball is coming!

Have you ever tried having an ice cream cone in such a snow world? HaHa~~~~~it’s very very good! An “old” guy could become an innocent child with an ice cream cone in this pure world!


Whistler, I love it!


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Even More Unbelievable

So incredible! I can hardly believe it! @#@ Maybe it could be called postscript of that rememberable “story”.

It was so coincidental that the cheat was seen by a friend of Miroslava at Burrard SkyTrain station. She was a so responsible friend that she tracked down the cheat to a hostel near Granville station. It was a very important piece of clue. I thought she must be found out and received corresponding punishment this time. But… it seemed I was wrong!

The front desk rejected to tell me whether the cheat lived here or not as he told me it was illegal. He may be accused for disclosing personal privacy. After I told him my “story”, he insistently gave me rejection as well as cautioned me against getting money back directly from the cheat because I would probably be accused for blackmail. Oh, My Gosh! But I didn’t give up. I reported it to the police. I expected that they would give me justice. However… I disappointed again. The police told me they would try their best to help me. But they also frankly told me it was hardly to get my money back or arrest her.

Heh! I really couldn’t believe it! She was just “in the front” of us; she was really a cheat; she did commit swindle to me… But why it seemed we could do nothing to her? Why it seemed it was she who was really protected by Canadian law? Why it happened in such an efficient law systematical country? Why…

It’s too unfair!

Thinking After Swimming

It was first time I went to swim again since that incredible “story” happened. To my surprise, I didn’t feel uneasy at all when seeing swimming pool again. It seemed I’d already completely recovered. Hurray!

I enjoyed hot spring first, which could help me make a good preparation. Comparing with it, the warm swimming pool was so cold that I spent a period of time to adapt it. I was still with the hope of learning swimming, but I was so timid that I only had courage to move around the side at lower part. Sigh~~~~~ Seeing other swimmers swimming like a fish, I was full of envy. When can I do that? I wish I were a 7-year-old girl now so that I surely can learn swimming during a short time.

Now, I begin to regret not accepting my mom’s advice. When I was a child, she always told me “Learn as much as you can when you are young.” I didn’t care at that time, but now I gradually know how important it was. Predecessors usually have abundant knowledge and enough life experience. They hope their successors could avoid mistakes they had made. However, youth always repeat such errors until they themselves realize it is wrong. Is it the law of growing process?

To My Best Friend -- Blessing From the Other Side of the Ocean

It’s a regular day to me -- the same light rainy day; the same homesick feelings; the same routine schedule. But, it’s really a special or memorable day to others. Some may be given birth; some may pass away; some may have a wonderful moment; some may experience a terrible period. I always imagine it would be so magic if I could record what were human being doing at the same sec.

What makes me think about it again is today is my best friend, Zhang Hang’s register for marriage. I believe it is the most sacred moment to all women during their whole life! Especial for Hang, the same age girl as me, I can hardly imagine what would turn up in her mind at that moment. I asked her the same question many times “What are you feeling now?” She answered calmly which was out of my expectation “Not so excited.” Oh, my dear friend, you must have been completely ready for the future with the other half of you.

Congratulations and best regards to you! Though I can’t attend your marriage ceremony, I send my blessing to you. No matter it is so long distance between you and me now, I believe you will feel my wishes at this moment!